Hope is all I have to get me through the day. Sometimes I just can’t try to understand my head and its thoughts, but with hope I try to manage my thinking to make the most of my day. I just want to be a better man, but hope is all I have. You need to know I have more hope today than ever that I will be a better man than ever.
I was a crazy person in a monster hell hole before FC. I was very mad and bad and crazy and fucked up. I was very unhappy. I was so unhappy I wanted to kill myself and tried lots of times. But it’s all old shit and now I’m a new person.
I’m a gentleman and a scholar, and I’m able to manage myself no matter what the world throws at me.
When I moved into my new home it was the best time of my life. Suddenly I had facilitators and staff who actually cared about me, and a wonderful buddy who I adore and who helps me to move on.
I’m very happy to be able to report that I don’t remember my first day at the Brotherhood. I’ve just always been here and here I’m staying. Me. I’m terrific.
I am kind and loving, not.
Just put my harness on and let me go.
My life is not mine really, but I will stay here anyway.